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As one ages, I would hope that there would not only be improvement of the exterior view, but of the internal as well. I would hope that a person would recognize the value of a great friend (seeing that they are so rare) and that even the thought of the loss of that person would create a disturbance in their heart. I would hope that as a person ages, he/she would know how to argue without demeaning another. I would hope that a person would know that honesty should be a prevailing factor in a relationship. I would hope that as one ages, he/she learns to face a person, even if its' effect is great pain and possible loss. I would hope that as one ages, one learns how to love.

But for the person I speak of, I do not know if he will ever learn. He seems to be reverting to a person that I never knew; it frightens me, it angers me, and it causes me great sorrow. Could I lose him as a friend? Possibly. The weaning may have already begun.

I know, I know, between school and work, I should not allow myself to become too concerned about another who obviously isn't putting out the effort in being my friend. But neither can I deny the pain or my concern for him and our "friendship." Whatever happens, I will be okay;though I may not be physically strong, I do have the strength of mind and soul to learn and grow from experiences, beautiful and tragic. I cannot state that it is an immediate rebound, but I always work it out for myself and again I will smile.

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